I turn 50 in a few weeks time. How did that happen and where has all that time gone? Surely my parents got my birth year wrong!
I find myself pondering past promises to myself and promises by other people. For as long as I can remember, my 50th birthday was special. So why doesn't it feel special in the old childhood way - why do I feel all upside down?
My mother always said she would take me to Rome to visit the Pope for my 50th birthday. Although it was an attempt at pacifying my childhood dreams of kissing the Pope and a bribe to keep me quiet, it is simply amazing how strong that childhood belief and yearning is in me. That would be because the sub conscious is sooooooooo strong and remembers all those things you tell yourself (I am wealthy, I am wealthy, I am wealthy).
By 50 I was going to be super wealthy, a specialist Dr and would travel the world when I wanted. I would have written books and been an important guest speaker on issues that kept kids alive. I was going to be a good person and have a princess style life.
At 10 that seemed fair. At 49, I still want all that by the time I am 50 and I want to carry it on for the rest of my life!
It is amazing how many of my childhood dreams about turning 50 have happened. I have published, I do guest speak. I have travelled and I took a degree in Social Work (specialising in child sexual assault counselling) - clients used to call me the Talk Doctor. I think I am a good person but I have done many bad things and hurt many people - and I apologise profusely for that.
At three weeks short of my 50th birthday I am unsettled and all upside down. I have lots of unfinished business and I am eager to get it finished. Wealth creation is one area that I have never danced a balanced dance upon. I am wealthy in terms of experience, memories and learnings, but not in the financial area that will fund my love of travel and ongoing learning. All I can say is THANK GOD for LIFE Leadership and their Financial Fitness package coming into my life BEFORE I turned 50 so I have the opportunity to self-fund from here on in.
Even though I have reached many of my childhood dreams, my yearning for The Seychelles (I wanted to go there for my 40th birthday but I was in London instead) and Rome (I have visited there once but it was not my 50th birthday) remains huge. My bank account on the other hand remains tiny.
Einstein said, "Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results."
I am insane according to Einstein! On the eve of my 50th birthday, I vow to do things differently and to really turn my life upside down!
I call myself an environmental fitness leader but I have no right to do that unless I do something different: leaders do it differently. Leaders make their dreams come true - they don't hang around waiting for them to happen. Leaders celebrate difference and absorb the endless criticisms and pull of homeostasis to bring them back to normality (imagine an unbalanced washing machine here with one towel or two wanting to go in a different direction to the rest of the load - the machine jumps and shakes until homeostasis ensures it regresses to the norm and continues doing the same old spin). Leaders live with being left of centre and upside down when measured against the 90% (according to Sturgeon's law) of the population who really do the same thing over and over again.
I have NO IDEA how I can get to Rome for my 50th birthday past my already publicly stated intention of making my 50th birthday a 50th birth year of travel. I know I will get to Rome and the Seychelles during my 50th year and that is acceptable.
I do know that I am not insane and that I have no fear or shame around doing things differently. I have recently consumed two books of difference with absolute interest, pleasure and action: The Ant and the Elephant by Vince Poscente, and, Financial Fitness by Chris Brady and Orrin Woodward from LIFE Leadership. WOW! They have turbo boosted my beliefs and actions. I absolutely recommend them to leaders (WARNING - don't dare read them if you are not a leader because they will change your life).
So, I have a few little accounts going and have a system of evenly dividing my incomes into each account. One of the accounts is for my 50th birthday in Rome. I don't mind delaying gratification and not being there on my 50th birthday, because, I am going to be 50 for a whole year.
The BIGGEST difference I have put into place in the lead up to my 50th birthday is that I have joined a business opportunity called LIFE Leadership. I figure that if I haven't cracked financial wealth by the time I am 50, it is most unlikely to happen if I keep doing it the way I've done it. Plus, most of my friends are like me - hard workers but lacking the ability to self fund retirement at a high level of enjoyment. I so do not want to be old AND poor!
LIFE breeds leaders and delivers personal development books and CDs (right up my alley as a past talk doctor). They are a subscription based company launching in Australia on March 1, 2014. If you want to work from home (or The Seychelles and Rome), have ALTHitude and want to have fun, make money AND make a difference, join us. Nothing wrong with a bit of profit share as a residual income. In the United States, Canada, New Zealand or Australia - talk to me and I can help you hook into a life changing system: LIFE Leadership. Imagine if I could work with 50 other leaders around the world during my 50th birthday year.
And, if you also are 50 in December this year, Happy Birthday to you and hopefully we can meet up in Rome 🙂